I feel if one day i were to pass away will i be missed?
If we're not too sure of tmr how can we decide how to live today?
How ironic can life be when i told myself not to fall for a younger guy but eventually the one i love is younger than me?
Is it jus on my part?
I'm gonna go through tis alone.. all ALONE~
I'm now stucked.. nt moving forward and i cant move backward..
I keep thinking to myself all these problem..
Do i tink too much?
Why i care so much? the more i care the more i cant let go... i reallie hate myself now..
Today broke down @ work.. cried early in the morning b4 passing report inside prep room..
Why is it so difficult for me...why i cannot be strong enuf to handle all these alone?
why i love to hang around at home and think of these shyt...
Tmr i decided after meeting him i'm going to ECP agn.. reminise in the memories.. this time i'm going alone..
The moment i open my eyes i miss ur hugs and kisses.. when will the days come back?
Will it ever come back? Is GOD trying to make a joke outta me? Cuz if this is a joke it's @ the cost of my life..
The torment of knowing i'm not important, not as loved... makes me wanna end this all..
But the torment of knowing i still love him even harsh words are said, wanting to be tgt for as long as we could... IS even stronger..
Am i the only one who feels this way? Am i the only on trying to salvage the situation?
If yes i am.. pls let me know asap.. treat it as your last shot of pity for tis poor heart of mine..
If it just stops beating cuz of the pain its going through.. then let me say tis ..
I LOVE YOU.. AND I LIKE YOU..
For who and wad you are..
Thanks for the memories.. and i will keep it with me..
Thanks all who is trying to show concern for me all this time.. ward colleagues.. frens.. my sister..
If cant reach me by tmr evening.. treat as though i MIA ba..
Labels: goodbyes are hard to say
healthy always
BeeBee
October 2008