31st dec.. my bday.. jus turn 23 y/o another yr older..
Reflections.. realise i haven been getting the best in life as yet..
hope more awaits me in the years ahead..
listening to the song "zhu wo sheng ri kuai le" by wen lan~
reminds me of my current situation.. but who cares? nobody but me and my inner self..
working now.. but done all my job.. so started blogging.. very noti nurse ..
Signing off
Labels: Happie bday to myself..
We ended our relationship in the most timeless way.. through sms..
Why? cuz i know he wouldn't stand to see me cry..
Even to the very last min i'm doing my best to not make things ugly..
Why does it have to be this way?
Does he still miss me? like i do? at this hour of the day?
Does he know we have alot of things we've not yet complete tgt?
Is it The End?
Life has been lonely.. tho i'm at work or out with frens..
Tho i still cry while writing this.. does he even care?
I hate this.. TOTALLY.. for being so weak.. so useless.. i'm doing nth to go back to the times we were..
I thought that day at turf city we had some improvement..
But wad can i do more?
He told me i'm a good gf.. so de prob lies with him? If yes.. why isnt he doing anything abt it?
All he said was he probably wasn't a good bf.. If u tink so.. why nv change for the better?
Ppl tell me.. if the guys say all these most probably not interested to continue with u le..
So do u even admit u don't love me?
If you do.. we probably wont end this way..
It's so sad.. to have to go thru all these esp if u still have feelings for that special one..
When i asked him abt taking liscense tgt next yr.. the cool reply came: see first bah..
Am i suppose to be happy? cuz we ended? so ur cool reply doesn't affect me?
U R Soooo wrong! It still affects me the same way as i was ur gf..
I cant seem to take the step to being frens.. i told u i will try.. but trying is no use!
Guess we cant really become frens on my part..
If we do go out the next time.. Would u hold hands with me? will u still offer ur shoulder?
do i get a goodbye hug or kiss?
if u read my blog.. pls reply~
Labels: The End?
healthy always
BeeBee
October 2008